My heart is so full tonight. Full of emotion. Good. Bad. In-between.
Ever feel that way?
I visited with one of my dear friends for nearly two hours tonight and in those hours she opened up and told me happy things and sad things. She remembers details as far back to even having a vague memory at one and half years of age.
What a gift she gave me to open up and allow me to see inside her heart a little bit.
Along that note I had a very upside down day all day today, nearly in tears at times. I despise when I feel that way. Makes me feel like an immature schoolgirl.
There is a lot in my world that I should feel blessed about and I should never dwell on what is wrong, but some days one is faced with what is wrong more than other days and such was my day today.
I keep reminding myself that God knows the big picture and knows what is good for me to experience and even though I don't understand the situation I'm in all the time I can rest that he knows what he is doing with my life.
Trusting God with my life is hard for me to do sometimes. I like to plan out what is next and over and over again I keep hearing him whisper, "not now." I feel like trust is the one area that I lack discipline in and I know he has been developing that character in me over the past couple of years.
I've learned a lot but some days I'm afraid I have to learn even more, maybe much, much more. I'm not always sure I'm up for that challenge. I'm just being honest. I don't always have everything together. I know when I write out things here on my blog I can make it all sound so good and fine, but at the end of the day not everything is always peaches and cream in my life. I battle with depression, some times more than others. I am battling with it a bit again at the moment. I really despise depression. It makes me feel low and like I'm not alright.
One of the ways I've been dealing with my depression is getting in my car and driving around, enjoying the landscape of our area. It takes my focus off of me and I end up feeling better after I've gotten out in the fresh air and daylight. I drove around for two hours this past weekend and I got a bunch of pictures. Following you will see what was part of my therapy session.
Enjoy my loves.
To me, this looks like it could have been taken out in the Wild West, but it was taken right here in Wayne County, Ohio.
I love it so much.
It is just so pretty. We pass it when we go do our food shopping.
The garden is just so lovely.
Off in the distance to the east of the garden lies another farm.
There is something about this picture that brings me pause, I think it is the very humble, rustic sign with the new-fangled high tech tower in the background.
Another very humble sign. But look at its backdrop. So beautiful.
Closed Sunday or No Sunday Sales on nearly every sign you come across in Amish Country.
The red barn against the luscious forest and the colors so vibrant. Like something out of a well planned movie.
A pond nestled at the bottom of a long hill.
This house and barn and windmill all seemed to be peeking at me over the hill from where I stood taking in my surroundings. I thought they looked a bit comical, so I got their picture too.
I love driveways. They bring so much character to a property. This one would be hard to navigate through at the moment, but at the end of that driveway is a little farm and I love this setting.
Old Glory waving at folks who are passing by. So beautiful when you see this spot in person.
A farm I found on the corner of the road.
The house and garden that belongs to the barn in the picture prior to this one.
A field of corn.
How precious is this little family?
A beautiful setting for some posies. I will share more about where these are in a later post. For now this is it.